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A little over twenty years ago, we purchased an old house on the lake in a small village in Maine. Approximately sixteen years later, a tree that we had completely neglected and barely noticed began producing apples. Today, apples that I’ll make applesauce with this afternoon completely cover my kitchen table. The apples are ‘ugly.’ Bruised and covered in blemishes, they could never be sold in a store, and yet they are delicious. They are a precious reminder to me of grace – gifts neither asked for nor cultivated. Each afternoon for the past few weeks, I’ve collected the fruit of this tree with an incredible sense of gratitude, and I gently place a hand on the trunk of this, my very own ‘giving’ tree, one which had lived beside me for so many years unnoticed and uncelebrated, and I thank it. It occurred to me after reading the Hindu parable about “Atithi Devo Bhava,” that we are far less the owners of the land upon which she is rooted as we are the tree’s guests, and she has gifted us generously. I now recognize the divine that dwells within her, and I bow in her presence.

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Today was a perfect autumn day, the kind that calls me out of my head and into my senses. The kind that finds me with my car windows rolled down and the music loud. The kind that makes me feel giddy and free. The kind that’s drenched in vibrant color and sunshine during the day, and graced with the scent of baking apples and cinnamon at dinner time. The kind that says to me, “hey, just maybe you can spend each and every day living in ‘radical amazement’ – each and every day – even the hard ones.”

There’s such sweet celebration and melancholy in autumn – temperatures drifting down, mists rising, the ancient choreography of birds embarking on their long migration, the harvest moon – an enchanting paradise so soon to be lost as nature once again begins her inevitable journey into the frigid arms of winter.

While the autumn advances and the leaves deepen and dazzle before relinquishing their hold on the bodies that have sustained them, my mother’s own grasp weakens as her cancer progresses and her spirit quickens. My love of nature has never been more acute than in autumn and I have never loved my mother more fiercely than right now.

I walk along the shore of Wolfe’s Neck woods, hear crows cawing in the distance, tilt my face up towards a gentler sun that caresses now instead of scorches. I’m both awed and saddened at the same time. I wonder how much of life is at its most beautiful just before dying. Is this the truest bitter gift of death, that life becomes oh so much sweeter?

Abraham Joshua Heschel wrote, “Our goal should be to live life in radical amazement. ….get up in the morning and look at the world in a way that takes nothing for granted. Everything is phenomenal; everything is incredible; never treat life casually. To be spiritual is to be amazed.”

Ammidst the loss, the longing, the life, and the love, I am amazed……

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